26 weeks pregnant with our second set of twins, I read a post about the last time you pick up your baby or have them on your lap.
While I’ve been pregnant I’ve not been able to lift up my (5 year old) babies. And my ever growing belly means no one can fit in my lap.
When the new twins arrive and I can start picking up my first twins how much will they have grown. Will I still be able to lift thier weight? Will they have grown that much they no longer need me to pick them up?? Reading that blog post I can feel the tears pang of the things I’ve missed while being pregnant.
The times that daddy has carried them to bed because I simply couldn’t lift them.
Lifting them to see over a fence. Because on the other side is something special but ordinary.
I feel like I’ve missed a lot this pregnancy and feel that when these new babies are here I really need to make up some time with the first set.
So now were in June and I need to pull on my positive pants (If they fit because of this ever-growing tummy)
I need to embrace this pregnancy and start feeling as excited as people keep telling me it is!
So I’m devising a plan!
I’m not going to lie my mental health has gone down hill since finding out about these two new people. I’m worried about PND and the hard work that it was with the last set of twins.
This month I am going to try to tick off a list of things that will help me feel more positive.
Finish playroom decorating ( I have enlisted the help of a decorator
Decorate and move the office
Decorate and furnish Nursery
Move kids toys into playroom
Declutter and purge kids toys – I am currently obsessed with Allie Casazza and want to try and live a more minimal life – I’m not going as far as one plate per person (so my friends won’t need to bring a plate with them) but I’d like to adopt some concepts into our life!
Carrying on with the Minimalist theme I want to redo my wardrobe – I know this is not really practical at over 6 months pregnant but I know some pieces that I will probably never wear again. and when the twins arrive and I lose the bump I will be able to top up my wardrobe with some key autumn pieces (Minimalist shopaholic!)
I will continue my search for the perfect but affordable vehicle for our expanding family. – We currently have a Vaxhaul Zafira which although is 7 seats, its 7 seats and not enough boot space to fit in a suitcase let alone a pushchair! I would really like a VW Caravelle but I want to pay cash and the price for a decent one is out of our cash price range!
Events in June
Friends Little One’s Christening – Both Hubby and I are God Parents
Mum’s 65th Birthday
Hubby’s Dad’s 70th Birthday
So looks like a busy month I also have numerous appointments in June with Diabetes checks, consultant appointments, midwife appointments and scans all already booked in!
I have also been slacking at swimming due to focusing all my time on the decorating and building work. I think it has had an impact on my mental health so I would like to go back to swimming at least twice a week. Even it’s only just to take the weight off my bump!
What are your June plans, goals?
Do you have any tips for me to get through the month?
First of all I’m sorry if this post is a little all over the place.
Back at the beginning of the year I had such plans for my blog and vlog.
I had even wrote up ideas in my planner.
But then something happened.
Something that has had me feeling ill for a while.
Something that sent my anxiety soaring.
Something wonderful and nerve wracking at the same time.
I’m now just over 20 weeks and I’ve just got back from our 20 week scan.
The reason I’ve been keeping it a secret is im not sure how I felt about this pregnancy.
I feel ashamed as yes we took the decision to stop using contraception to “see what happened”
To have J & M we had 5 years of trying followed by being pushed here there and everywhere for fertility treatments and then finally after a round of fertility drugs we had a big fat positive.
Anyway with morning sickness and extreme fatigue we booked for an early scan to make sure the pregnancy was valid and I joked to make sure there’s only one this time.
The sonograper had only just turned the screen around………
F**k is exactly what I said. Then proceeded to cry.
Yes that two sacks. Two foetus. Two heart beats!!!!
Omg not again.
Last time was so hard.
Two more means a new car. A double pushchair. And missing out on all the things I missed out on last time because there are things I couldn’t do with 2. Like swimming, like sling carrying. Like having one to one time. Even baby massage and playgroups were an issue.
As I said I’ve just been for my 20 week scan. And I’m still not sure it’s sunk in.
20 weeks marks the start of my constant consultant appointments. Scans every 2 weeks.
I’m hoping to be a little more active on my social media, blog and maybe even you tube channel.
I’m sorry it’s taken so long to tell you where I’ve been. But it’s been hard to admit that I wasn’t over the moon especially as I know some people who follow me are struggling with infertility.