Health & Wellbeing, Pregnancy, Wellbeing

I survived….. Just! (Placenta Percreta Cesarean hysterectomy) Part 2

Please Note images may be upsetting for some readers! 

Part one of my journey can be found here!

  • Saturday 2nd – The day went well – tried again to breastfeed, got out of bed and used the toilet. Then by tea time I started vomiting –  I was transferred to a ward during the night where the vomiting got worse!

I hadn’t yet opened my bowels after the op and the nurses were getting a little concerned – I was given suppositories to try to get things moving. and although some things moved it wasn’t easing things enough!

Sunday 3rd – & Monday 4th – Still vomiting, still no bowel movements, I couldn’t keep anything down. so I ended up with continuous IV fluids and pain relief.

In the end, I got transferred back down to the High Dependency ward where there was a better one to one care!

I was given enema’s to see if that would get my bowels moving and alleviate the sickness.

They didn’t work.

It was late on Monday night and I’d had a sip of water to take some tablets and wanted to hold ‘baby boy M’  when out of nowhere came another bout of sickness. It went everywhere all over me and my bed all over ‘baby boy M’ all over hubby’s trousers and shoes and all over the nurse.

I got out of bed and headed for a shower – It was the first shower id had since before my op! It was heaven, I actually felt like I was a human being again!

  • Tuesday 5th – Felt a little better I even managed to drink a couple of cups of orange juice and keep them down.

Then they decided to take out my staples – all looked well apart from one small gape at the bottom the nurse put some steri strips over it! IMG_3011

I was then transferred back to the ward and given some food I managed a biscuit and some fruit and some more orange juice.

Then more vomiting and later that day my wound opened up! There was a little bleeding and I was told later on it was 3cm deep and 9cm long!

I ended up back down to the High Dependency Unit.

Back in the side room!

Later on, I ended up with a tube down my nose to drain any more fluid that had been making me sick! this was not a pleasant experience every time I swallowed I could feel the tube in my throat however it did take the pressure of my stomach and ease the sickness.

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I was told I should be nil by mouth!

Wednesday 6th – Nil By mouth, lots of iv fluids and pain relief during the day then, later on, that day a surgeon and the anaesthetist from my previous op came to see my wound and said I needed to go to surgery to have it closed back up but beforehand I was to have an x-ray – the x-ray wasn’t a good enough result so I was set for a CT Scan. This is similar to an MRI but the tube is smaller so you don’t go as far in and don’t feel as claustrophobic. They put a cannula in my arm before I went down for the CT but due to all the previous cannulas, my arms were so bruised they couldn’t find a vein so had to get an ultrasound machine in to look for a suitable one! The cannula was for them to add some liquid during the CT Scan to dye my veins to check the flow of things. The dye gives you feeling of warmth from your head in a wave to your toes as it goes down you feel like you’ve had a wee – I was assured this was normal and I had not just disgraced myself. IMG_3086

The results came back

My bowel had twisted ……….

To be continued

Nina

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Half Term Bucket List

Just one More week of school and its half term again!

As I was indisposed during most of the Summer holidays  I plan on making the most of this Half Term.

There are loads of things I want to do but I will still be recovering so I’m aware I need to not do too much.

I plan on utilising the grandparents for the small twins while I try and get a bit of quality time with the big two.

 

-Eating healthy 
Art 
Yoga 
Exercise 
Gratitude lists 
Declutter
Be in the moment 
Let it out
Talk
Get enough sleep (1)

  • Pumpkin Picking – There is a farm nearby that has activities to do like a bouncy castle, tractor ride and more. It looks like a great activity for me and the big two to do!
  • Film Afternoon – I think we might have an afternoon snuggled on the couch watching a couple of dare I say Christmas films!
  • Craft – I have bought some craft supplies to make some Christmas cards I saw on Pinterest. I think I might buy a roll of kraft paper too and make some gift wrap!
  • Kite Flying – I think we will take a walk to the park on a blustery day an take our mini kites.
  • Baking  – M has asked if we can do some baking so we might have a go at something halloweeny!
  • Soft Play – J has asked to go to a big soft play with a big slide! I’m not sure if we will make it to the one he is thinking of but we might get to the local one during the week when I need a bit of a rest & decent coffee!

Here is what we got up to last year at October Half Term!

Let me know what your up to this Half Term

Nina x

Health & Wellbeing, Pregnancy, Wellbeing

I survived….. Just! (Placenta Percreta Cesarean hysterectomy) Part 1

This is quite a long story so I am posting in 2 parts!

Its well over a month since I posted about my Operation.

I just didn’t have the emotional or physical strength until now to post about the past month and a half.

If you follow my social media accounts you will see that I had got through the op.

I just thought I would jump on here today and let you know a little about the events of the past few weeks!

I posted up to the point that we had been admitted to Jessops Hospital to spend a week trying not to go into labour.

After a week of  “resting” hubby staying with me each and every day It was the Tuesday before I had my op!

  • Tuesday 29th – I thought it was going to be such a long day but in fact, I had that many people coming in and out.

The lovely nurse who took us to visit SCBU where my babies would be taken not because they thought there would be anything wrong with them but because I would need to recover from the anaesthetic.

She gave me a pack to express some milk if I felt up to it after I had come round from the anaesthetic. She gave me some cloth hearts that I could put in my top and then when the babies were away from me we could exchange scents to aid bonding and milk flow.

The anaesthetist came back to see me to make sure I had no more questions.

The surgeon came to make sure I knew what was happening the next day.

I had the perinatal nurse come and chat through things with me to ease my mind a little.

Some of the other members of the team came and introduced themselves too.

That night myself and hubby went out to the seating area with a cuppa. I prayed silently and we held each other for a while, tears flowing about the enormity of the next day!

  • Wednesday 30th – I got dressed into my gown hubby got into a pair of scrubs! Around 7am my anaesthetist came to see me and then around 8.30 we were wheeled down to theatre.

 

We got into the recovery room and I said goodbye to hubby.

I remember going into the theatre down a corridor with my amazing anaesthetist (little did I know how amazing she was going to be through the rest of my journey)

She talked to me all the way through the prep of the operation. until finally, she said I’m now giving you your sleepy meds …………

I don’t remember what time I came around but when I did hubby was there and my mum. I was in the recovery room and Hubby showed me a pic of the babies. I remember there were tv theme tunes playing in the background.

I can’t remember much else until I woke in intensive care and had my babies at my side.

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I remember the only thing I had to say was – Blimey baby girl J has long nails would there be any nail clippers to clip her nails? I did try to give them a little breast milk but I really was too tired and full of morphine to feed them any significant amount.

I spent one night on intensive care hooked up to so many monitors that every time I dropped off to sleep the monitors would beep as the heart rate monitor is set at a certain amount and every time I nodded off my heart rate would go down further than that amount. They told me not to worry but when it’s beeping you can’t really forget about it!

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  • Thursday 31st – After a bed bath, I was transferred to a high dependency ward where I remember wanting desperately to get out of bed but they said my temperature was too high and they thought I had an infection. The next min everyone else babies and mums who were just post op too were wheeled out of the ward and a portable x-ray machine was wheeled into x-ray my chest.

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From here I was on drip fed antibiotics and fluids and a bag of blood.

  • Friday 1st – I was then given a side room and my babies were transferred to be with me. Hubby stayed with me and our babies. I was too weak to look after them at this point my thoughts of breastfeeding were now replaced with the guilt of not even being able to cuddle them!

It was from here I was able to get out of bed for the first time – after just a normal c section this feels like the worst thing in the world! You feel like you are going to rip open and everything feels like its going to fall out.

I continued to be given IV fluids and painkillers,

I managed to eat some food and drink a little tea!

Everything was going in the right direction………….

To be continued

Nina

Health & Wellbeing, Precious Moments, Tips, Wellbeing

10 Ways to improve my mental wellbeing – World mental health day. 2017

Today is world mental health day.

Mental health can affect anyone. From the young to the old! It can come in many different forms, anxiety, postnatal depression, post-traumatic stress, bipolar, schizophrenia and more.

Sometimes symptoms can be helped by doing little things each day to boost your mood. Sometime you may need a little more help from therapy or medication.

If you or anyone you know seems to be suffering from mental illness please contact your health provider. Do not sit in silence. Seek help!

I’ve suffered on and off myself with depression and anxiety since I was young.

Here are 10 ways I help myself if I feel my mood dipping or my anxiety creeping in!

  1. Eating healthy. Eating a healthy diet gives you essential nutrients that can, in turn, make your body produce chemicals that improve mood.
  2. Art. It has been proved that art & craft has beneficial impacts on your mental health. Activities such as painting, knitting, pottery where you can immerse yourself in the activity is a bit like being in a meditative state.
  3. Exercise. We all know by now that exercise is an essential part of everyday life that we should be participating in. However, still, not enough people are doing the recommended amount per week. However, even just a 10 min brisk walk outside can improve your mood. The vitamin D from the sun even in a winter, the fresh air into your lungs and the fact that you are moving creates chemicals that boost mood.
  4. Yoga. I’ve put this separate to exercise just because it encompasses more than just exercise. The stretching, the controlled breathing and the movement all help with getting you on the right track to a positive wellbeing.
  5. Gratitude lists.  we did start writing 3 things we were grateful for each day and share it between myself hubby and stepson, lately though we haven’t been doing it. You could put them in a journal, or write each one on a piece of paper and put it in a jar.
  6. Declutter – A cluttered home creates a cluttered mind. If there are things piling up around you it doesn’t create a calm space for your mind to relax!
  7. Be in the moment – Take a moment to be here and now. use your senses to really feel present. smell the coffee your drinking, taste your lunch rather than just gulping it down out of necessity, get down and play with your kids the way they do!
  8. Let it out – If you need to cry, cry – stick on a weepy movie grab some tissues and have a good sob!
  9. Talk – Grab a cuppa with a friend and tell them how your feeling, or seek out a counsellor who will not pass judgement and tell them whats bothering you. Sometimes when you talk about things they don’t seem as bad as they did in your head.
  10. Get enough sleep – Sleep is so important for our mental state of mind! We should aim for 7 -8 hours a night. Sleep gives our brains time to process information that it has been given through the day. sleeping can help aid recovery of traumatic events.

 

Nina

Health & Wellbeing, Pregnancy

Sometimes it takes a stranger …….

To realise how lucky you really are!!

Your family, & friends and people you know to say hello to down the street can tell you how well you are doing, how they can’t believe how well you look after all you’ve been through and how lucky you are to have two sets of twins.

However, sometimes it takes a stranger to tell you how well you look and how lucky you are.

Last week we went to register the new babes. Then we sneaked for a cheeky coffee before heading back for hubby to do some work from his home office.

We sit in Costa and a lady behind me told me how she was admiring my twins. I told her the story that we had two more at home. She said wow you are amazing.

She asked how old both sets are and I told her 5 and a half and just 5 weeks old. She said wow how are you even upright let alone out and about. She told me how lucky I was to have not just one set but two sets of twins. Many people have said this through my pregnancy and after their birth, however this time it felt different.

Her words really sunk in and I looked at our new set of twins and thought yeh you know what.

We are really blessed.

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It took us 5 years to get our first set. 5 heartbreaking years of 2 week waits, negative pregnancy tests, medical professionals telling us our only hope was IVF.

Now we are blessed with 2 sets of twins. Yes, I’ve been to hell and back over the past couple of months, however, I’m alive and we have a family that’s going to make loads of memories.

We now have 5 children between us. And it feels amazing. Hard work but amazing.

So never underestimate the power your words have even to a stranger!

Thank you, stranger, for making me feel as lucky as everyone keeps telling me I am!!

Nina x

Pregnancy

And just like that we went from a family of 5 to a family of 7! 5 weeks in.

It’s been 5 weeks since they arrived into the world on August 30th but I just wanted to introduce our new twins, Mason & Jessica!

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The journey has not been an easy one and the delivery was far from simple but they are here and healthy!

They were born by a complex CSection under general Anaesthetic, not at all what I had planned.

Weighing in at 5lb11 Baby boy M was born at 10.53am and baby girl followed a minute later at 10.54am weighing 6lb 14.

5 weeks Update –

Mason has already developed a little character and Jessica Is not far behind!  They both seem to be lifting their heads and looking around at new things.

To be honest, the past 5 weeks have been gone in a bit of a blur! I spent alot of the time ill. (birth post coming soon!)

At 5 weeks they are now in 0 – 3month clothing.

I am still recovering from my op so our days are spent slow, though we have managed to do some of the school runs and had a few outings to soft play, a party and a trip to the sure start centre to get the babies weighed.

 

 

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First soft play visit 3weeks 4 days old 
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Getting ready to leave the hospital age 13 days old
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5 weeks old

 

Thanks to everyone for your prayers thoughts and well wishes.

I cant tell you how much they meant to me!

And thanks to all the staff at Jessops / Hallamshire hospital, everyone was amazing!

Nina x

 

 

Precious Moments

A letter to my big boy starting year one.

J, it’s almost time to start year one!

What a year it has been. When I first took you into nursery you were shy and not very confident without mummy.

Now look at you. You are confident in loads of things. You can say your lines in assemblies and school plays with loads of confidence.

You still love playing with your “misters” and I love that you can immerse yourself in that play.

You sometimes still need mummy more than Your twin sister M.

I know you are worried about what’s going to happen once your new baby brother & sister arrive. I’ll let you into a secret so am I.

But you are an amazing little boy and I’m sure you and the rest of us will adapt to the new life.

We’ve had a busy year. What with you learning how to swim. Playing the drums. And going on our family adventures. I can see a lot of your big brother in you and you idolise him and although this scares me a little I’m glad you have someone to look up to.

Just like mummy you love your food and often can be found at grandmas asking for an egg, a biscuit, or a bacon buttie.

You also have those boy moments when all you want to do is sulk or be a monkey. This is sometimes mummy’s fault as I get tired and ratty with you back. Sometimes I don’t realise how frustrated you are with things and I think you get this from me too! Mummy is trying to parent you and M better.

J you are going to be amazing in year one. It may be hard work. But now you have started liking writing and doing sums and going to break time with the big boys and girls so you can have a pizza snack you will continue to grow.

Love you little dude. I’m so so proud of you.

Mummy xx

Precious Moments

A letter to my big girl starting year One!

M you have come so far in the past year. You have grown up so much that I feel I want to sprinkle you with fairy dust and keep you the age you are for ever.

You have found a love for colouring and writing and I’m so proud of how well you spell and write. ( Your writing is sometimes neater than mine!) you love to sing and give huggles.
Sometimes at night when you won’t go to sleep and Your twin brother has gone to sleep already I often tell you to snuggle in with me for a little while before daddy gets home. Sometimes your still wide awake and when he comes in your blue eyes twinkle at him and you end up having a horsey ride into your bed even though daddy has been at work all day long. (You’ve proper wrapped him around your finger)
M you are so helpful helping grandma iron & helping load the washer. You often want to help me with jobs around the house. Your helpfulness extends by being mummy’s spider catcher. You have no fear of any insects and think nothing to picking them up. Although I do wish you wouldn’t keep wanting to keep them all in jars as pets 😉
You have enjoyed joining rainbows the past year and love going. You were so proud on your first parade.
There are times that I get cross with you. It’s normally when mummy is tired or busy but I am trying to be calmer with you.
You are so excited for your baby siblings to come I hope when we’re all tired from no sleep you are still as eager to help.
I’m looking forward to seeing how you cope with year one because if the past year is anything to go by you are going to do amazing things.

Never forget how proud I am of you.

Love you loads

Mummy x

Pregnancy

A quick update – I just can’t find the words.

Ok. I cant find the words at the moment to fill you in fully. 

I am just going to run through the details so that for those that have asked I can let you know without typing replies and messages over and over!

So. After a quite difficult pregnancy pregnant with our second set of twins I’m now nearing the end. 

All the way through scans have reported that twin 1’s placenta has been high. On the last scan i had at 34 weeks i was told that in-fact the placenta was low. And not just low it was covering “the os” which means the opening of my cervix.

Chatting to different people i have been told they don’t move down so it must have been low to start with and other sonographers have reported falsely. 

So at 34 weeks i got booked in for a c section for 37 weeks. 

The following week i had to go for steroid injections to help improve babies lungs. I attended my appointment on the Wednesday 

Wednesday evening I had a few niggles. I coped until the Thursday when i had to go back for my second injection. While  there I informed the midwife who sent me for monitoring 

The next day the drs came round and my consultant decided I needed an MRI 

After spending another few days at a bigger hospital with more resources should I go into labour (The pains were just niggles)

While there they found my iron level was very low and id need a 4 hr infusion. 

Also they did an internal ultrasound to confirm the placenta was in-fact low. 

I was sent home on the Monday with an appointment for the next day at Sheffield Royal Hallamshire hospital. With the top Dr in the country that performs this kind of MRI. 

The lovely Dr took us into a room after the scan and informed that it was bad news.

My placenta is deep into my uterine wall and therefore i would be having my c Section on site at The Jessop Wing of the hospital where they have an amazing team of people that perform surgery that I need. 

It will be not only a c Section with major blood loss anticipated but a hysterectomy and possibility of a bladder repair as some of the vessels from the placenta also look like they have invaded the bladder. 

After my MRI I went home and was told to attend my consultant appointment the following day and to pack a bag and prepare to return to Jessops the next day. 

Jessops is nearly 2 hours drive from our house so both myself & hubby packed a bag. 

The next morning (Wednesday) I woke from about a two hour sleep and headed to my mums where my other two had been staying overnight while I had been in hospital. I brushed M’s hair ready for holiday club and put it in plaits I cuddled my children tight and me and daddy took then to holiday club. In my head thinking if I don’t make it. At least I know that last morning at home was fairly normal for them.

We both kissed them goodbye and said we didn’t know if at my appointment they would like to keep me in to see the babies a bit longer.

To be honest the kids took it in their stride and didn’t seem bothered.

Sorry.  I wasn’t going to go into emotions but I felt the need to share my fear! 

So i headed to my appointment where after having to get results faxed through and numerous phone calls between my consultant and Jessops I was eventually told to head over.

Once here at Jessops I had the most intense 3 hours of my life. 

Chats with surgeon and anaesthetist about what the state of the placenta is. The possible risks involved in The surgery from damage to bladder to  needing lots of blood transfused. I mentioned that my fear is I don’t make it through. He reassured me they do around 6 of these a year and around 30 in the 5 years they have been performing this kind of surgery  and they haven’t lost anyone. He said thats why I am here as its one of only 3 hospitals in england that perform the op.

So basically Im now at Jessops awaiting this intense surgery next week. I am to do nothing so that a) I don’t bleed and b) I don’t go into labour. 

They do have an emergency plan in place should I do but by next Wednesday they will have a more  advanced medical team on hand.

He said it takes that long to get everyone in the right place at the right time and all equipment in the right place. 

Meanwhile i have been given an amazing room on my own where hubby can stay with me. 

What I know about the op. 

  • It can take anywhere from 4 – 7 hours. 
  • I will be asleep
  • I should be awake the same day but if my body is not responding they may keep me asleep until the following day 
  • They expect I could get out of bed the following day as getting up and about as soon as possible aids recovery 
  • My op will be in a different part of the hospital to where I am currently and where the babies will be taken after the op
  • Hubby will go with babies who will go to special care as they may need help waking up from the anaesthetic and maybe a little help breathing 
  • They will move me back up to near the babies as soon as I am able 
  • Following on from this their main priority is getting babies out making sure myself and babies are fit and healthy. Followed by getting myself and babies back together as soon as they can.
  • I wont be home for a minimum of 10 days following the op
Sorry if this post is all over the place. I Just wanted to get out something of what I know. While its still in my head. 
 
 
 
Thanks for reading 
 

 

 

Precious Moments

To my step son On results Day and becoming 17!!

Hey C,

How the hell did you become this young man all of a sudden??

I don’t often tell you how proud I am of you. Instead we normally laugh with you about your lack of geography knowledge. No C Ohio is not the answer to every question.

When I first came into your life you were a little terror. Much the same as your little brother is now. Except your hair was a lot more ginger than his.

I was given a role in those early days that I wasn’t ready for. I often got frustrated that you were more than just a boy who did boy things. You needed constant attention. I had only just moved in with your dad and now I was to care for this boy that wasn’t mine but not be able to have much say in his upbringing as you live with your mum mostly.

You did bring challenges to me and your dads life.

However all that hard work we all went through including your mum has made us strong. We all get along now. And that’s down to you!!

You are the jigsaw piece that connects us all together.

You dote on your brother and sister and no doubt will dote on these next 2 as well.

Anyway today you are off to get your GCSE results and I just want you to know how well you have done despite the ADHD. Whatever results you get you can do what you want. (When you work out what that may be!) I’m sure your results will get you into your college course and one day hopefully you’ll be earning enough to at least buy the pizzas on pizza Friday nights.

Next week you turn 17. And will be able to start your driving lessons. Then your world is your oyster. No more taxing for dad or nanny!

Good luck on the next chapter of your life C.

Proud to call you my stepson. And so glad I stuck with the hard times when you were younger to see you become the polite and helpful young man you are now. Even if sometimes we don’t see you until lunch time. And that’s only if there has been food mentioned. 😉

Nina xx